Monday, December 29, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Arise, O son! burst thy bonds and be free!
How long wilt thou be captive to silver and gold?
Though thou pour the ocean into thy pitcher,
It can hold no more than one day's store.
The pitcher of the desire of the covetous never fills,
The oyster-shell fills not with pearls till it is content;
Only he whose garment is rent by the violence of love
Is wholly pure from covetousness and sin.
Hail to thee, then, O LOVE, sweet madness!
Wonderful couplet by Rumi - and wonderful practical depiction of the couplet by Muntazar al-Zaidi.
Photo courtesy: http://www.flickr.com/photos/31394176@N04/3109684230/
Thursday, December 18, 2008
It's just very good outside - clean roads, shining with the road lights, mild-cold weather, not much cars on the roads (as it was about 11 in the night). The ecstasic part being a thought that reincarnated in my mind; the Thursday night reminded me of the blessings of Allah Almighty that shower during this night till friday prayers. I remember I read somewhere that on from Thursday night till the time of Friday prayers, one should recite Salawat on Holy Prophet (P .B. U. H.) and his Progeny as much as possible.
May Allah accept our plea, and forgive us all, and shower His Blessings on all of us.
Monday, December 15, 2008
- I confess I am Patriotic
- Proud to be PAKISTANI
- I want to throw some shoes too (this is about Bush being thrown shoes upon, i cann this international patriotism)
You can shop Jaffer Jees products online from:
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Then it crashed into the Corolla... causing its rear bumper to break, trunk affected, lights bent.
I rushed to the gentleman driving the car, a really nice man. I told him instantly that my breaks failed completely, he came to see what happened to his car, I tried to see what happened and identified the dents, and asked him to tell me the expense so that I caould pay him for that.
to my surprise, the gentleman did not even ask for anything, did not even utter a word, and went back to his car. I really felt bad, and gave him my card...
The reason was that my break tube was all old, so much so that it bursted out when I applied the brakes, and then there was no use applying brakes...
I got a new tube installed just then, and drove to office. But still I am a little scared off to drive back home. Car overhauling on saturday.
Thank God nothing happened to anyone's life.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
"People who waste time can't do anything, I feel hurt at this. Can't help but I feel like doing many things even at this age which I used to do but I don't really remember certain things. Now that I am old I have got my thinking power to be less strong, even this day I feel like doing many things but well what I do is I tell all these things to the house of God."
These were very thought provoking sentences.
Dadda, (my grandmother), is not my actual grandmother. She is my father's aunt, but I like feeling her as my real grandmother, doesn't make any difference. We all always called her Dadda, and so I never remembered her name. Today, I got her form filled for the STM workshop, and saw her name Saeed Begum written onto it.
A tiring yet refreshing day it was.
Friday, October 17, 2008
how wonderful it will be!
Peace everywhere, justice everywhere!
When I listen to the ginan sung by Aabida Parveen. I used to listen to it, because Aabida Parveen sang it in a very rich fashion, but then I stopped listening to it because I felt bad that I am enjoying something which is sung for a false Imam (Aga Khan, Imam of Ismaili Shi'as). Since then, I have felt enigmatically about the re-appearance of Imam Mehdi (a.s., azzawajal). When he will be here, what an environment it will be!! Extremely interesting, and emotional for me to think about it. I realize that this will happen after very tough situations, more tougher than my imaginations, but the thought of this milestone, just takes away all the worries!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Today, I am very much happy at having the book back with me. I have some very strong memories and emotions attached to this book. I gave it a couple of years back or more to Lubna Inaam Khan, a friend, to read. I just read the novel once, but read a few of its parts quite a few times. One of the best paragraph that I find from the book is:
To search for this paragraph, I went through many of the pages and as I read the few lines of many pages, it reminded me many striking memories and emotions. Marvinder - Marvi, the character in the novel, whenever I read this name I get the word Red in my mind.
It is lovely to have the novel with me, very soothing, and the book seems to me a beautiful palace of a wonderful, generous and a motherly Queen.
Monday, October 13, 2008
It is not really good, whatever is happening.
Just had a chat with my cousin who is in international tradings and shipping, and it was interesting to realize that shipping and trade is a hell lot exciting, you get to know the attitude of countries in detail...
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
It was in my task list to make a Surah Rehman Blog. So I finally did that. My plan of action to update this blog will be to post single verses or single set of verses of Surah Rehman, and have some explanations over them.
If anyone reads this post, please pray for my consistency in this task.
The URL is http://surahrehman.blogspot.com
May Allah give us all prosperity, success, peace and harmony from the passing Ramazan.
Big Cheers! :)
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Planning, executing, thinking, and being active all the times is making me feel happy. The other thing is being studious, I am trying to be studious, or at least study on time. This is one of the best feelings I am having these days...
I wish, hope and pray that everything goes smoothly. Especially my exams.
Monday, September 15, 2008
I am trying to overcome this fear from Mathematics and the exams of Maths, so I just asked her for how to be successful in Maths. Following are the tips she gave me:
- should enjoy solving problems
- do it as a hobby rather than homework
Wish me luck! :)
One of the quotes that I learned from Abu Ahmed Akif, was,
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
The latter one was just today, that is, 3rd September 2008. I was on a phone call with someone*. The voice said in a positive, happy and soothing tone, "Zain listen to me, relax and everything will be fine, stay happy and I am with you...", there were some more words that I could not really understand as I realized this is not in real... it was a bit painful experience to tell myself that this phone call is not in real, so let's not get emotional and let's wake up and move myself away from this phone call as it is time to wake up.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Translation of Ayahs 33 - 35:
"He said, 'I have killed a person from among them, I therefore, fear that they may kill me'.
And my brother Haroon, he is more eloquent is speech than me, therefore appoint him a Messenger for my help that he may confirm me, I fear that they will belie me.
He said, 'It is near that We shall strengthen your arm with your brother and shall give you both dominance, then they could not harm you on account of Our signs. You both and those: who will follow shall triumph'."
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Afterall, your brain is not for thinking everything all the times, it is about thinking once (when you are planning), and then just thinking while implementing one thing at a time.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Wow, it was wonderful! Though in my dream the baby was my sister's daughter, but I just felt her as if she was my daughter... It was way too wonderful and pleasant to play with her, I moved my finger near anf far from her eyes, and as I drew my finger near her eyes, she wanted to concentrate on it and both her irises met at the inside corner of her eyes and she smiled at it! Wow! :)
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Eyes in your eyes
Arms in your arms
What is left of me? What just happened?
Your words in the things I say,
Nights, just your souvenir,
Why did everything became your's?
What just happened?
Wherever I go,
I meet you,
just you, and just you,
There is silence in the noise,
a little fainting,
just you, just because of you...
Half a promise sometime,
more than half sometime,
feel like do it this way of loyalty,
Can't leave it if I want to,
can't destroy this even if I want to,
This thread of love that I have tied with you...
I am Your investment
Whatever I am,
is because of You...
Paths get connected,
Destination gets to me,
just because of You...
Friday, August 8, 2008
but keeps walking in the deep frozen steep path
to get to the summit
which is his target.
He would not let any wind
however cold or cutting
move him away from his path
summit is precious than blood
so he let go off the latter
His flesh is being eaten by the cold
but he worry's not
for the summit has the best of flesh and blood,
for the summit is his target.
Someday, you will no more be mine...
This is to my headache, precisely the temporal lobe ones...
The doctor already had the answers:
- No exposure to open air
- No carpets at workplace or home, not at all
- No thick curtains in room, very light ones
- The bed needs to be put into sunlight every week, and cleaned regularly
- No colored drinks
- No juices, only the real ones allowed
This list drives me Crazzzy!! When I asked him about the possible surgery that the last doctor I consulted told me about, he gave me the opinion that I don't need it as such because my nasal passage is not too bad, it is just the hypersensitivity of my nasal mucosa that causes this.
I insisted for the surgery, because this is my target to get rid of this chronic sinusitis. He replied me to come back in 4 weeks time after taking medicines and then he will get my skull CT scanned to make 100% sure if either my surgery can be done or not. I am hopeful.
Meanwhile, before the doctor, an internee doctor took my initial/basic checkup. My blood pressure was not normal, it was high, she asked me a few questions, and then concluded that my blood pressure usually stay abnormal. Either too high or too low. Mostly it is high. Which is not due to any physical ailment...
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Monday, August 4, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
It is wonderful to see the two fathers of a daughter each to be so excited about all this.I remember Ayaz-Ul-Hassan's sentence which he told me a couple of weeks back, "...it is really refreshing to see and play with my daughter, when I reach home...". And it is wonderful to just think of the the way they would be excited to play/train their daughters.
May Allah grant them and everyone with sweet daughters, and excitement to train their daughters.
I am not bad at communication and/or expressing, I express on time... right?
Friday, August 1, 2008
Surprisingly in the morning, I found an envelope in my bag, for the people who lived at her place. I thought I would open to read what it is inside, but realizing that he is no more here, and I might not be seeing him again, I opt not to open it, and I am just going to deliver it.
He was not a bad person at all, infact they were not a bad couple at all. There smile was awesome too. They got struck by these things: lack of understanding by her, impatience by him, lack of support from her and the rigidity from her of decisions involved in sensitive relationships, as if it was a bank deal, or war, or business agreement...
Good bye mate...
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
The method is simple, you go to Imambargah Khairul Amal, pay them a sum of 7000 Rs., and get a receipt which confirms a grave booked. They make the title slab on their own, so you don't need to order it separately (this is as per my conversation with the representative I called).
My friend asked to get a grave for the burial of her wife's belongings. I will go there on friday to help him out with this...
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Then I called my mother, just to tell her that i have reached home. Told her not to work overwhelmingly as people will be coming over to our place nearly all day long to have their participation in the Niaz.
Then I called my eldest sister, who was in her school van on her way to school, talked to her about when will she come to our home, and just had a small chat.
This was a Good Morning. A Good Morning Talk.
Moral: Talking to siblings, without any topic, every few days, make them feel that you are there for them. It is a healthy activity, and important too.
Monday, July 28, 2008
In this small 1 minute 47 seconds conversation, in which nearly 1 minute was taken by the IVR and the operator, I felt a really cold thing: The guy who recieved my call, just replied that "call at around one", no 'please', no 'I'm sorry the person is not available at the moment', no gestures. I have heard it in a training, that whenver you get a phone call, smile while you accept the call, it really works out to have a nice conversation, however small it may be. Probably that is what the guy needed to do, because the conversation I just had with him I felt him as a guy with less etiquettes.
His wife died in an accident. All he can now bury is her belongings. Since he did not live with her, her belongings are with others, which he is going to take back and bury. Her belongings include a shirt (Qameez) orange in color, a Pakistani female trouser (Shalwar) white in color with threads embroidery, a South Asian stall (Dupatta), Sleepers (Chappals:kolapuris) of orange color which he bought after much selection, a maroon leather wallet with her name printed in golden over it which was the last gift he presented to his wife, a movie dvd which he just compiled for her with movies: Juno, The Bourne Series, etc, a card which he made and she pasted on her room’s with title “together we sit”, having her family's group photo in it and two cell phone SIM cards that he bought for her in the past years which she used untill she died...
Hearing this story from him, I got shocked and I felt really grieved... I thought he was making it hard on himself, he must simply forget everything and move on, but he convinced me:
"I was not used to wake up in the morning on my own. But since the incident, my sleep gets disturbed very early in the morning, and after that I get horrible dreams. Nearly daily. In my dreams I saw her coming to me, being angry at me, once I saw her brushing my hairs with her hands and when I asked her to come along with me, she just walked away, 'moved on' would be the right word. I couldn't bare all this... I had to bury her, or else her thought keep roaming in my mind all the times. I talk to her, I try to tell her that it was not the supposed thing to happen, she passes by me, and just moves on, I shriek, all in agony, but she just 'moves on', I can't live this way Zain,... I would have gone to end my life, but it will be injustice to my parents in their old age, and to my brother and sisters, so I need to end this somehow..."
"...I will bury her belongings, to a grave, put a slab with her name engraved sweetly over it, will do it all alone, stay there, cry for her, and put an end to the unending love I have for her... I would still love her, and whenever I would miss her badly, would go to her grave, cry a bit and recite prayers for her... I get happy by the thought of doing so... My love will get eternal then..."
This sounded very emotional for me, but I just placed myself on his place, and found peace by this thought. So he actually convinced me for what he is doing. He added a line to me, which sounded logical, and since it is all unharmful, I accepted this commented: "Emotional people can only be healed emotionally Zain..."
The last thing that he mentioned, was cute: "When I imagine my love properly buried, I find her satisfied with me. She smiles in the lost world, and all I can see from the lost world, is her smile."
May they both rest in peace, not in pieces.
God bless them with peace.
Monday, July 21, 2008
May God help me...
Monday, July 14, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
I was in shortage of a friend, a good great close friend, whom I could tell everything I have been having in my heart, who could help me in everything, who could lead me out from the current mud to a rehab, and from the rehab to a normal life. Being in a bad situation, I just went blind and couldn't see anyone. But out of the blue, really suddenly, someone said 'knock knock', and I just found the perfect partner. My new best friend, brand new! :) I know my best friend has a shining personality... I can confidently say hat my new best friend has all I wanted. (Yes, I was in need. I don't feel shy, and find no harm in speaking out that I needed a friend.). Now I know I have to keep up with my friend.
Good times coming ahead! Promising ones.
Khuda Hafiz! :)
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
This is exactly what I am trying to practise right now as I type this post. It might be a little difficult to do so in the beginning as is the case with me, but there is a workaround which really helps: indulge yourself in some activity which might get you some relief, or might interest you. The easiest of which is blogging, of course, and people who cannot blog, can do some other stuff, like make a drawing and color it! Start composing a poem, think of azaad nazam (independent poetry), or if you are not a artistic kidn of personality, start thinking out of the box for a really new and different kind of business that can come into being!
Wow, its all awesome! :)
Next things which can now reduce this negative effect further can be less talking and keeping track of office time, that how much time has been spent on what.
Probably I will have to listen and understand Atif Fasihi and Ayaz-ul-Hassan's Q theories yet again and in fact it will be great if I post them to my blog so that i remember them better!
ETA: COW. (Estimated Time of Arrival: Close Of Week)
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Email from Anil:
I’m excited to say we will be having a mango party sometime this week preferably on Thursday. I kindly request everyone pitch in 100 rupees and have a fun and wild time enjoying mangos.
(Look at his "mangos"'s spelling :P)
Just did the money collection, I have got 3700 rupees in my pocket now, will buy many different kinds of mangoes and thinking to have some better arrangement than the one we have in the cafeteria!
Mangoes all the way tomorrow!!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
One thing I have grabbed, an interest, and this is to blog. What is blogging? It is maybe nothing more than catharsis, and we all need this to sort our brains. But there is always a need of a happy face to be in your brain. It might be your own smiling face, your nephew's laughing face, your wife's satisfied face, whatever it is there has to be satisfaction in you. What if satisfaction is not there? I do not know the answer, there are answers out there, but I do not have them settled in my mind.
Anyway, I am happy to have a small interest getting developed in me.
Friday, June 27, 2008
This lack of attention and preoccupied brain is a big distraction for me towards concentration at work. Then I try to find a solution towards this problem and in doing so I get frustrated as to what the optimal solution can be.
Sometimes we just need to set ourselves free and work, even if it is a bit slow. I have learnt this thing to some extent that even if I stay preoccpied, or have some strong stuff running inside my head, I keep pushing myself towards work, no matter how slow I work... It is helpful.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Employee appreciation does create a difference in the life of an employee, but is shouldn't be abused at any workplace, i.e. appreciating the employee to neglect other parts of his life. (Ofcourse this is not the case with my colleague, it is just a thought.)
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Germany won 3-2, and it was awesome watching the match in the cafeteria.
Hatts off to Turkey!!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
What is a change?
Just googled it and found so many different results that I opened the word web dictionary, and found it's meaning. Change, can be used as a verb, and it means Cause to change; make different; cause a transformation. All right, I need a transformation. Transformation from the current self I have got developed.
I am planning to make this change in the upcoming months, starting from July 2008. I don't have exact mindset as of yet for what needs to be done first to achieve the "change", but I guess making myself physically better would be one the first things that I would find helpful in getting nearer to the change. Other things might include scheduling work timings (as soon as I have typed this, I have pinged my boss on the instant messenger to tell him to get a van to pick and drop us daily; this will schedule the time automatically) and developing a hobby/interest.
That's it for right now, till this point, this all always seemed a hell lot of stuff for me to do, but I will make sure that I take them easy on mind and hard on implementation. :)
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
The Absolute is the totality of things; all that is, whether it has been discovered or not. It is usually conceived of as a unitary state of the external cosmos and internal spiritual consciousness — at least insofar as it can be acknowledged by the human mind — and is intelligible. In some varieties of philosophy, the Absolute describes ultimate reality. It contrasts with finite things, considered individually, known collectively as Relative.
The photo is of one of the group conferences of the Bank of Credit and Commerce International (also known as BCC). The facts found on internet for BCC are very much screwed up, one of the reason I personally think, is that the whole company was put to end in a rampage in just five days. Consider a company having branches in 78 countries and being the 7th bank asset-wise world wide, and the completely is no more in JUST five days.
The other reason, is obviously the fabrication of facts. Many agencies around the world destroyed this financial empire in unison, and hence it must have not been a very hard task for them to destroy the facts.
BCC was a bank of excellence, and its founder, Agha Hasan Abedi was a devoted personality par excellence. He joined Habib Bank at the time of partition of the South Asia in 1947, created a bank which is now one of the leading banks in Pakistan named as United Bank Limited(UBL) in 1959 and then created BCC which started its operation from London in 1972 and took over the banking world in just ten years.
Apart from these developments, he founded many philanthropist institutions. Foundation for Advancement of Science and Technology (FAST) and Infaq Foundation are a couple of his creations, and many other institutions were supported by BCC.
BCCI was closed in 1991 by the United States and United Kingdom's government agencies.
Agha Hasan Abedi died in Karachi, Pakistan, in 1993.
May his soul rest in peace, with Totality.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
- The perfumes they wear, and
- The way they talk (the typical larkiyaana style.)
I don't say they shouldn't wear perfumes, or they should keep silent all the times, but I AM IRRITATED!! :S
God Save Me...!
p.s. There is also one big little serious reason behind this too............ but it is too serious and ...I can't share it.